If I truly accepted this world as meaningless, I would no longer be the self associated with the ego's thought system of separation and guilt. Thereby opening the way to allow the Atonement principle to become my only reality. This is the truth that would make me "indescribably happy". Unfortunately by continuing to identify with my special and separated self, I am continuing to choose not to be "indescribably happy". I guess being "right instead of happy" is more attractive to the ego. But I am very willing to let go of this today.
So far today, I think I have seen an angry world, a sad world, a depressed world, a decaying world, a funny world, a silly world, an impatient world, a loud world, a hungry world (just to name a few). But I am upset because I see a meaningless world.
Today, I really appreciate the words of understanding for my resistance at the end.